Don't get me wrong...I am VERY open to receiving a good guy into my life. Although I cannot say I have really ever had one, I miss having a good guy in my life. My past record with men is horrible. What you have seen in the previous post is not the worst of it nor all of it. Considering the men that I have been involved with it is amazing that I even would be willing to be in a relationship...ever again! I had a guy friend that was there during a lot of the mess years ago...and he would constantly say he could not figure out why I still had anything to do with men at all! You know Greg, I am still asking myself that! LOL!
Now I have had good guys in my life as friends. (Usually until the wife/girlfriend got jealous about the relationship even though NOTHING was going on.) SO I know those good guys are out there...they just are destined for someone else. It's cool. I have no problem with the fact that it appears that I am not supposed to have a real, good, loving relationship with my soulmate.
When I was younger, I always thought I wonder what would happen if my soulmate was killed or died before we met. Would God have a backup soulmate for me...is there a second string in relationships? Do you go without your true partner in life and settle for second best...unknowingly? Is that why so many of my girlfriends are single or suffering through horrible relationships or settling on lesbian relationships? (which is not an option for me!) Do soulmates really exist or are they products of our ability to be flexible and applying ourselves like putty into the lives of others...filling in all the emotional holes?
Maybe there are no answers to those questions. Maybe we are supposed to go through life and just fall into our place and hope for the best.
Wonder if I am in my place...
Now I have had good guys in my life as friends. (Usually until the wife/girlfriend got jealous about the relationship even though NOTHING was going on.) SO I know those good guys are out there...they just are destined for someone else. It's cool. I have no problem with the fact that it appears that I am not supposed to have a real, good, loving relationship with my soulmate.
When I was younger, I always thought I wonder what would happen if my soulmate was killed or died before we met. Would God have a backup soulmate for me...is there a second string in relationships? Do you go without your true partner in life and settle for second best...unknowingly? Is that why so many of my girlfriends are single or suffering through horrible relationships or settling on lesbian relationships? (which is not an option for me!) Do soulmates really exist or are they products of our ability to be flexible and applying ourselves like putty into the lives of others...filling in all the emotional holes?
Maybe there are no answers to those questions. Maybe we are supposed to go through life and just fall into our place and hope for the best.
Wonder if I am in my place...
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