Moving On...

I know it has taken me more than two years but I am finally able to say I am letting go of my ex.  Recently, I have posted about how much I still missed him.  Now I know it was not Pete that I was missing but some of the ways I felt with him.  Thing was, it was all a lie.  I was feeling it but he wasn't even when he said he did.  But that is ok.  So just in case he is reading this, I want to say to him:

Pete,

I know you obviously did not know how hurtful it is to play with someone else's heart and feelings.  I want to believe that if you did, you would not have allowed yourself to do some of the things you did.  My greatest wish is that you are never hurt as much as you hurt me.  I pray that when you find the person you think is the love of your life, that she doesn't walk on your heart like it is a worn out door mat.  At this point in my life, I know that I cannot openly receive my true love or recognize my true soulmate as long as I am harboring any resentment for you.  Never will I regret standing beside you and supporting you even when you weren't there.  I am glad I was the bridge that carried you across those valleys you encountered while we were together.  I am proud to know that I am capable of being the person you really needed, even if you did not realize it or appreciate it.  I do wish you love so that one day you will know what to give back to someone who loves you.  Because of you, I have a better understanding of that and I am ready to give it back to someone who truly loves me, too.  So, I close not only this message but also your part of my life because I am ready to receive the great things that await me and I am ....

Moving On.

You are what?????

You know I never realized it until recently that I have been shocking a few folks that see my profile.  You see the name - DivaForWhitePrince...you see my love for country music - since I think Tim McGraw and Toby Keith are both delicious! LOL!  With all that...folks don't know I am African American!  LOL!  Too Funny!  I guess I forgot to add that to my profile over to the left!  Guess I had better do that! See the majority of the Yahoo Groups I belong to are for white men who date black women so I guessed that the visitors to my blog were from there....Oops!  Guess I will go change my profile now!  Haha!   

Yeah I Am A Country Girl!

It is so funny to me now.  All my formative years while Grandma force-fed me a Hee-Haw diet on Saturday nights, I TOTALLY hated Country music!  I often thought that if I had to listen to one more Charlie Pride, George Jones or (Grandma's Favorite) Roy Acuff song, every ounce of my pigmentation would just fall off me!  LOL!  Since I have been an adult, I have developed a taste for country music.  Tim McGraw (my personal favorite), Toby Keith (yes I have a thing for stocky cowboys, too), Keith Urban (when he talks, his accent throws me off! LOL!) and Lonestar are a few of the artists I have been listening to lately.  That is until today!  Many of you who visit my blog know me from YahooGroups that I belong to.  While checking out the members list to one of those groups tonight, I ran across a country music artist that belongs to the group as well.  His name is Greg Austin and he has a great song for those who have found love online or have a loved one that is far away from you.  If you like country music, take a moment to listen to Long Distance Lovers.  WHy don't you take a minute and let me know what you think of his song. Email me!

Where Have You Been!

I know! I know!  I said I was going to be more diligent about posting but things are wild lately!  Recently, I became one half of a promotions partnership and we already have a big event to set up....IN SIX WEEKS!  On top of that we have a website launch to do, employees to hire, loose ends to straighten out AND work our full time jobs!  (Can't let go of THAT yet!)  So watch out...we are on our way!

Blue Friday

I am not really sure what happened today.  After two years, Pete is occupying a lot of my thoughts today.  Maybe it was all the news reports about Iraq and the Marine reservists that we lost this week.  Maybe it was just the fact that nothing stays buried for forever.  Don't get me wrong...I do not regret my life without him...especially in light of all the things that happened which I will not get into here.  I know I don't miss him.  Maybe I miss the life I thought I would have with him that I never did.  Maybe it was the sudden death of one of my classmates who was one day older than me.  Someone I had known since second grade.  Maybe I am just having a moment!  Maybe I need to quit listening to this dang song! 

I finally was able to stop listening to Tim McGraw today (after what...5 months?)  and I put in the Keith Urban CD.  Maybe that was the mistake.  The song Tonight I Want To Cry was where I lost it today.  Thank goodness I am working from home. 

All I know is that I would/will NEVER sacrifice my happiness to have the things I want in life.  Settling for someone who doesn't love me like I love them or who disrespects me is NOT a part of my plan.  Yeah, it gets lonely out here waiting.  Who knows?  I may be waiting for the rest of my life.  It just sucks right now.  :(  I am thankful that I do not get these moods very often.  I think this is the first time in over a year or so...maybe more!  This funk will be over before I turn in for the night...that I know. 

Nothing in my life has really changed...I still want my partner in life, my family...I really don't think that is a lot to ask for.  I do know since I have been out here this long I am not going to change what I want.  I know no one is perfect and I really am not but I will not accept things I do not agree with just to say I have someone in my life. 

Oh well,  let me just back to my seat in life's waiting room before someone takes it!

The Song Post

I still love me some Van Morrison!  But I have been in a country feel mostly lately.  No, today's song is not country.  It is actually from a kind of newcomer that has a cool look and voice and I love the lyrics of most of his songs...I wonder if he writes them himself...hmmm.  Anywho!  Gavin DeGraw is an absolute cutie that seems to be singing my life's soundtrack!  Today's clip is: Follow Through, again by Gavin DeGraw.

The song basically tells his prospective love the qualities that they must possess.  I think his list while not as inclusive as mine is a good start.  If you get the opportunity to hear the whole song (if you haven't already), do and pay close attention to the lyrics.

I Am Back!

Wow!  It has been almost a year and a half since my last post.  I know I said I would never post again but here I am!

Things have not changed much as far as men in my life are concerned.  In the last year, I did meet someone I thought I would be THE one.  But again I was wrong.  Fortunately for me, I have had quite a few changes in my life that have changed my prospective on everything else.  I still have a hard time believing that there is a love out there for everyone.  I know love happens for others but the love between a man and a woman may not exist for me.  I am ok with that.  As long as I have my family and friends, I am good! :) 

I do think I will start adding the song clips again as a reflection of my mood for the day!  Already got today's song in mind!

So for the folks who are watching and reading...I am glad you are here and I am glad to be back.  I cannot wait to hear from you!